Your thoughts are clear, your words are precise, and you absolutely, positively mean business. You know what you want, you’ve done the work, and now you’re just waiting for it to pay off. You’re wanting it to pay off so badly that you might have convinced yourself to just go get it instead of waiting for the natural course of events; you’re wanting to just rush in, talk to people crazy, roll your neck a little bit, and slice and dice with your eyes, mind and mouth.
Either you need to make a decision, or you need someone else to make a decision, period, point blank. This could go either way and suspense is not your strong suit. The thing is though, this whole situation is based on a tender bit of heartbreak that might have happened awhile back. Your impatience might be based on an inability or unwillingness to deal with prior pain and disappointment, so you’re rushing into the future to outrun your past. But when you are motivated by pressure instead of peace, everybody gets hurt, including you. Like a painter who has to clean his paintbrush or a wine taster who cleanses his palate, you need to get what happened off of you so you can create and /or receive what comes next with a clean slate.
This new moon, you are advised to do and expect a new thing. Not something based on what happened before, but based on what you WANT to happen next. This is a time for transformation, for choosing to be innovative with your emotions as well as your ideas. The same old, same old is just that. Your comfort zone is no longer comfortable because its not allowing enough growth. You’ve got to get out of your complacency and find your joy.
How you’re feeling right now is stemming from a decision you made about a soul mate, or some other major life choice. You chose as best you could based on your experiences and what you’ve survived. You have every right to come out of this situation proud of yourself, feeling like a bawse, but you’re doubting. You’re searching for validation that you did the right thing.
To others you appear to be calm and peaceful, but really this is the quiet before the storm. You’re tired of dwelling on what you could have done differently, but you aren’t ready to speak your truth. You’re between a rock and a hard place, and your silence isn’t based in satisfaction but confusion. You have such strong feelings about the situation, but you need to correct how you’re thinking about it.
This new moon, rather than make rash decisions based on self-doubt or feeling overwhelmed -- slow down, ground yourself and breathe. And then breathe again. Control what you can control. Where you are called to act, be consistent and reliable. Where you are called to speak, be patient and thoughtful. Until your head clears, no sudden moves.
Once your mind clears, it will become obvious to you there is something you really, really want. The only question then will be, what will you do to get it?
You’ve been self medicating in some way, Gemini, to avoid dealing with some painful issues. But now, rather than indulge one twin over the other, you want balance. It is Libra season, after all. In order to have the balance you seek, you’re going to have to say what you have to say, and let what has to be said, be said to you. Once everything is out in the open, you can mourn properly, face your disappointments and pains, and finally heal from them.
You’re thinking about how to be independent, self sufficient and magical -- but you’ve yet to internalize that the powerful transmutation that magic requires comes from the heart, not the mind. You’re very certain about what you want, and what you think, and what you want to say, but it's all very logical and clinical and devoid of emotion. Clarity isn’t true clarity if emotion isn’t a factor.
This is the time for finding what really makes you feel good, even if it means leaving behind the things you thought made you happy. You have to figure out the difference between experiencing joy and numbing pain. Are you truly thriving, or are you just trying your best not to hurt?
This new moon, ponder the power of sacrifice. Is there something you need to give up and let fall away in order to ascend to your next level? A habit, viewpoint, mindset or relationship? What do you need to release so you can go higher? What do you need to give up in order to gain?
You have to face your pain in order to move past it. Masking it so you can handle it only prolongs it. You have to face it to get through it. You might need to cry, write, call folks and cuss ‘em out, run, rage, release.
It will be messy and glorious and you’re worth it. `
Whatever you’re feeling now stems from a difficult situation filled with turmoil and loss. You’re concentrating on just moving on, but at the same time you want to know why it all fell down the way it did. You’re looking deep into your intuition for answers to the unanswerable, but introspection has led you to suspect something don’t want to believe. There is someone untrustworthy in your midst, someone close to you, perhaps a close friend or family member.
You’re tired of the drama and you just want to move on from the whole unpleasantness as soon as possible. However this new moon, your advice is to face the fuckery once and for all and let them know you know. Be like Uma Thurman in Pulp Fiction -- “I want him to know that I know, and I want him to know that I WANT him to know.”
Enjoy the rebuilding and transformation that is taking place in your life. Enjoy watching certain people get transformed OUT of your life, as they no longer suit you. It's time for you to break the chain of old repetitive patterns, cycles and relationships, and appreciate the peace that clarity brings.
You’re finishing up some much deserved rest and recuperation after the conclusion of a painful situation. As a result of your peace, you’ve been getting deeper into your emotions and intuition, and the natural rhythms of your life. However, the deeper you go into yourself, the more forgotten hurt rises to the surface. You’re trying to balance all your identities -- all that you are and all you provide -- and the effort of being everything to everyone makes you reminisce about simpler, sweeter times.
Leo, your advice for this new moon is to go ahead and feel your emotions, but don’t let this upsurge of sensitivity throw you off your square. Be your own sense of calm within the storm. Understand that you’re not alone in feeling raw and open. It's a sensitive time. This is the season when the leaves fall, when the cold comes, when everything sleeps or dies.
Go ahead and finish this cycle in your life. Feel your feelings, heal what needs healing, and continue to live in the in between place where your intuition tells you things you have no way of knowing. You must practice making decisions based on your understanding of light AND shadow.
You are being remade and re-born, in the image of your wisdom and experiences. Let it happen.
This is your brand new beginning. You’re feeling victorious, looking good, and enjoying being supported by those near and dear to you regarding your passions. However -- since success comes with responsibility -- you have a choice to make.
The crux of the matter is that you want to do the right thing -- and perhaps in some ways you want to be told what to do because you’re not quite sure what the right thing is. Except, if someone did tell you what to do, would you do it? After working so hard to become your own authority, are you willing to so quickly give your power away? You’re focused on drawing some lines in the sand and letting folks know where they got you fucked up -- . but perhaps you wouldn’t have to so forcefully claim your power if you weren’t subconsciously trying to hand it over.
This new moon, figure out what YOU want. Be your own authority. Execute decisions, but not from a space of sensitivity and victim-hood, but from a space of pro-action and competence. Get on the other side of the power equation -- rather than looking for someone to tell you what to do, be the one who delegates. Be the one who is disciplined enough to be relied upon. Be the one with the master plan.
Make choices that you can be transparent about, because the spotlight is coming your way. As you get used to being focused upon, release the need to do every single thing yourself. Create systems that allow you to delegate.
Recently you’ve felt disappointed, and it was difficult for you to focus on the blessings still around you. Because of that, you’ve got master plans on plans to keep the past from repeating itself. If you can’t control it, you don’t want any parts of it.
You’re a pretty good leader, too -- you have the most creative, out-of-the-box-but-it-works solutions to everyone’s problems -- but deep down you’re not sure if you’re ready to step up and be the boss because something really fucking hurt you and you can’t really deal. If you keep going this way without addressing and healing your wounds, you’re going to wind up lying to yourself and others about your capabilities, and your reputation will take a hit.
The advice here is to focus on what you can give, and what you can nurture. Speak about how you feel, turn it into art, cry, make love, be with your children, play, scream, let your soul be a rainbow and leak color everywhere. Go into nature and talk to trees. Accept where you are so you can be honest with people about where you are.
If you continue to suppress your emotions, you will make decisions from a false space, and their effects will not align with your true needs. However if you’re transparent, your choices will be authentic and thus most beneficial.
Advocate for yourself.
You’ve learned how to better care for yourself, your people and your resources. You’ve learned how to -- as they say -- fill your own cup first. Well your cup is full and you’re wanting to offer it to others. However all this love and light and friendship gets you over stimulated, and sometimes you just need some time alone. You’re learning to balance doing for self with doing for your people. Except instead of speaking up and asking folks to pour back into you when you feel depleted, you have a tendency to walk away and do your own thing.
You’re also excited about a new beginning and you’re ready to just jump out there. However whatever this new chapter brings, you know it must contain reciprocity. No more stalking or ghosting. No more extremes. Balance is key now.
For this new moon dear Scorpio, use your courage to let people love you. Let your love make you vulnerable, yet trust you will not break. There is a middle ground between being totally dependable and totally dependent. It's the place where we take care of each other.
In the recent past you embarked on an adventure. Because your new beginning filled you with optimism, perhaps you’re making promises that you can’t fulfill. You’re just optimistic, that’s all. It’s just you’re having trouble balancing what you’ve told people you can do with what you can actually do.
You really want what you want, and you should have what you want! The problem is, subconsciously you’re stuck on an old cycle of horrible, awful heartbreak and pain, and you’re building on top of it rather than dealing with it, clearing it and moving forward to a new cycle.
This new moon, your advice is to take care of yourself first, then take care of others. You can’t give nobody a ride if your car is on E. If people expect you to mother them, you have to be your own mother first. You can have domestic bliss, but remember the phrase -- “When mama is happy, everybody's happy.” The reverse is also true.
At the end of the day, there might be some conflict in your world and in your spirit but that’s alright. Putting yourself first often gets a little kickback from those who are used to you putting THEM first. But… so the fuck what.
In the recent past you made a decision that is making you and your loved ones very happy. However it represents an ending of sorts and in some ways, you’re hesitant to move on. Your mind is on fire with creativity though, clicking away and calculating all of the variables, and you are supported by the deep knowing that all the things you’ve been through have brought you to this place and you deserve the fuck out of what is coming to you. You feel good and your enormous worth is being recognized.
This new moon, your advice is to accept whatever ending must occur and know that it will not only benefit you, but your family on a generational level. Stack your coin and bless your bloodline. THis is a time to do what you are best at -- to recognize the SENSE/CENTS in moving on from behaviors and patterns that are no longer working. This is the time for you to lean in, bless the past and let that positive change happen, in your life and in your pockets.
You’ve done the work and your rewards are here. Surrender to your blessings.
You recently moved on from a difficult situation. Everything wasn’t necessarily worked out to your satisfaction but you managed to cut your losses and move on, with or without closure. This has led you to feeling a bit paranoid, still on guard for the next obstacle. Perhaps as you try to go forward, you feel chained to expectations of everything going to shit, again. You’re having trouble releasing the past and moving forward into a future you can believe in.
Yet, in your heart, you recognize a new beginning. You are experiencing a surge of positive emotion, but you’re nervous to channel it in optimistic ways because of the fear of disappointment. Your mind is on a tangible reward -- yet even though you’ve earned it, you won’t allow yourself enjoy it.
Your advice for this new moon is to say what you have to say. Don’t beat around the bush. Whatever situation in which you cut your losses and tried your very best to move past -- you need to readdress. The reason you are feeling paranoid and stuck is because you avoided confrontation instead of setting yourself free. You forgot chains could travel. It's time to speak up for yourself and say what you repressed before. Don’t worry about being too harsh; even when you are firm and direct, you can’t help but speak from a place of love. Don’t be afraid to speak your truth.
Get this difficult communication out of the way because you have lots of choices coming at you, and you really need to figure out what path you want to take and what choices you want to make, and you don’t want those decisions to be based in old fears. You want to face those options with a clear mind.
In the recent past you got tired of waiting on folks to help you so you decided to do some things on your own. And it's not that you mind help, either -- but either things will be done your way or you’ll just do it yourself. However even when we decide to do things on our own, sometimes we still have to be patient. Our time is not God’s time. It's going to take how long it takes.
And the thing is, you really ARE patient. But you see so clearly what needs to be done and how to do it, except you don’t want to put your hands on it because you know the magic happens when things delicately fall in line, and are not forced and bossed together. Deep down you’re motivated by taking care of yourself and your people long term, and you know that’s not a fast food order. It’s going to take how long it takes.
This new moon, your advice is to work on your work. Do what you can, and do it well. God will do God’s part but you must do yours. Yes you have amazing ideas, and yes they will be integrated at a future date. But now, get really, really, really fucking excellent at the basics, at the foundation, at the doing-it-every-day-ness of it. Get so engrossed in the work that the timing of the rewards surprise you. Swing your hammer and hum.
This is the time for using all phases of ebb and flow to move ahead on your path. Inertia pushes us forward too. Don’t feel like just because events are snapping and pushing, that you aren’t moving ahead. Things are always in flux even as they appear to be still. It's not like you’re bored though -- because you have work to do.
The universe is teaching you to remain steady, even as events shift around you. Through your consistent practice, you can always feel rooted in yourself, your talent and ability.
This new moon reminds us that good things come to those who wait, and that anything worth doing, is worth doing well. We have worked hard, we have been patient, and we are willing to fight any entity that comes sniffing around our tender new growths. We made a wish -- and not for the first time -- but the difference is, this time it's going to come true. Congratulations! That’s the good news.
The challenge is, now that we’re getting what we wanted, we’re so much more focused than before on what could go wrong. On what we could lose. We’re excited to use our resources to care for ourselves and our loved ones better, but the added responsibility makes us feel that failure is inevitable. Life is so much scarier when your hopes are up.
Unfortunately, there is no magic answer or solution to make the fear go away. Life is full of ups and downs, gains and losses, ebb and flow. You are right to be afraid, if change is something that scares you. Change is the only constant. But just because change is inevitable doesn’t mean is has to throw you off balance. You don’t have to worry. Life will always balance itself. What goes up must come down. What is taken from your right hand will be given to your left. With this understanding, have compassion for your own fears and the fears of your loved ones. We are hurtling through the stars together.
Now is the time to keep being patient, keep being consistent, even though winds of change toss around you. You shall not be moved.
Just remember that as long as you don’t get out of the boat, you will unfailingly arrive at your destination. All that’s left to be decided is whether or not you will enjoy the ride.
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